I can post it here cos I know people won't see it

Well, college has had a pretty bad negative effect on me. Oh dear, turns out I had a panic attack this morning. I didn't even know I had them. I've been crying on off since I've gotten up. Was determined to go to college, I got half way up the road and kinda hastily walked back home and broke down to my mum.
    My mum had a talk with me which calmed me down and told me, 'everyone finds their thing in the end, you may just take longer to find yours' So as I've now I'm calmer but still a bit apprehensive if the college phone me and ask why I'm not in. Feeling pretty fucking stupid at the moment, but I can't help it. Can't believe this is all over a piece of work. Oh two more months and I can sing a big 'fuck you' at that place.

I wouldn't mind but my make up looks half decent for a change. Typical.

Well then

Well London was amazing, such a brilliant weekend. I'll write a type of diary entry for it later. But first. About a week ago I got a letter from Liverpool Community College saying how I've got an interview in about 2 weeks tomorrow. Oh, everything is finally happening! 
So I've sketched up a quick design for a costume. I've taken inspiration from the Devil's Carnival. I'm doing a Woe-Madien/Harleyquin. I will post a the process on here. Yay!

LONDON! HERE I COME!

I am packed and ready to go on my adventure! I'd be lying to say I wasn't a little nervous, scared even. This is a bit thing for me, first time going to London. First time without any rents, mine don't know that... Because of the I feel guilty D:
But I'm excited as I'm visiting the sets of Harry Potter, oh my goodness! hgkjsfhggkjjf

Creative Ideas

Well, my media teacher emailed me a brief for my media coursework which has to link to my essay (A star theory of Elvis in the 50s) Oh so many ideas! I just hope I can do the things I want to. The only problem is I have to link the product to my essay, which I have yet to finish, oh dear.
     So I think what I'm going to do is a new iconic star who would be a 'modern girl inspired by the 50s' but I think I may somehow put a pin up spin on it. But I'm stuck for a name, I've looked at some Burlesque names and name generators but all I got back was either really cringe worthy and not classy, or too crude.
Now I have to plan a layout for my three products and next week I'll take the pictures for it. I really should finish the essay first *sigh*