Well, college has had a pretty bad negative effect on me. Oh dear, turns out I had a panic attack this morning. I didn't even know I had them. I've been crying on off since I've gotten up. Was determined to go to college, I got half way up the road and kinda hastily walked back home and broke down to my mum.
My mum had a talk with me which calmed me down and told me, 'everyone finds their thing in the end, you may just take longer to find yours' So as I've now I'm calmer but still a bit apprehensive if the college phone me and ask why I'm not in. Feeling pretty fucking stupid at the moment, but I can't help it. Can't believe this is all over a piece of work. Oh two more months and I can sing a big 'fuck you' at that place.
I wouldn't mind but my make up looks half decent for a change. Typical.
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